Friday, February 26, 2010

let her go, doctor. she's gone.


(cavernous echo)

anyone here? here <----- (cavernous echo typed out)


yeah, okay, so i get it. this blog has just about breathed its last breath.

picture my blog as a nighttime tv drama... i can picture McDreamy compressing the blog's chest, not wanting to let this one die. McSteamy slowly comes up and puts his hand on McDreamy's shoulder and says, "this blog is gone. it had a wonderful, full existence. it served its purpose and we need to let it go."

McDreamy says, "Mckay was my patient. She had so much to say. She needs to keep typing her guts out. It shouldn't end this way."

hot doctors and i agree. it shouldn't just die like this. for a long time now, i haven't had much to say, so i just started posting less and less. i missed hitting the "PUBLISH POST" button, but with nothing to say, i just let it go. i let online friendships fade away and even stopped reading the many excellent blogs i used to frequent.

recently, i started a new fling: twitter. i could post mini missives to feed my writer's cravings. it's quick, easy and i get to click an "UPDATE" button. yay for publishing on the net! through twitter, i've met other micro-bloggers and i've seen first hand all the fun and enthusiasm blogging creates in orange county. not wanting to miss out on any more fun, i've been playing with the idea of starting up a new blog....about theater: my experiences as a director, actor, and audience member. orange county has some amazing theater groups and i'd like to get to know them better and help showcase all the talent that oc folks can experience first hand.

so, McDreamy can stop the chest compressions and let this blog die. i may stop by from time to time to post a little something - kinda like putting flowers on a grave.

and when i do return, it will be with fondness for the things that poured out of my brain and onto the net, for the bloggers i met and admired, and the simple joy of just writing.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

what the hell is this noise?!

i listen to Valentine in the Morning on myfm 104.3. They've got a contest going on to guess a noise and....the prize is now up to around 8,000 dollars!

Take a listen to the noise

here's a list of what's already been guessed:

what do YOU think it is?

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Saturday, January 02, 2010

ornaments, memories, tissue paper and life

this evening i'm watching You've Got Mail while taking down my christmas tree ornaments. it's a charming movie with a christmassy feel, so the chance meeting of me and movie is a good fit for tonight's task. i remember the first time i saw this movie. i was disapproving of the two main characters - how they were both in relationships, yet had secret online tet-a-tets. granted, neither person was married, but still they were living with other partners and were supposed to be monogamous. yet, now looking back, perhaps i was so miffed by their wandering romantic eyes because i was so insecure about my own relationship. in truth, is it wrong to see something wonderful and be open to possibilities if you're at a crossroads and have the opportunity to make a turn in your life? living together isn't a life long commitment, it's a convenience and a cop out, in my opinion.

woo, i can get my panties in a twist, hmm? it really is a cute little movie and meg ryan was truly at her perky, sexy girl next door best. she and hanks had such great chemistry together, wouldn't you agree?

anyways, i really should be putting away my ornaments, but it tends to take time as each ornament unconsciously gets its own acknowledgment and moment of remembering the story of how that ornament came into my life. some are from my childhood, some given to me by my mother, friends, sister. but the most precious were made by my children. i think of my loved ones as i wrap each piece in tissue, protected and valued for the memories they instill.

memories are wonderful, but now's the time to put them away, too. i can wrap them in tissue, perhaps, as most of them are special. and the others - i can toss 'em. with 2010 i will be looking forward - making new memories. the view of the future is an exciting thing, don't you think?

there's so much to look forward to. watching my kids grow and tackle new achievements, me...directing more theater and maybe getting away on some fabulous trip abroad. maybe i'll meet some amazingly attractive soul on the internet ;0). hey, if it can happen to meg ryan, it can happen to me. not that i'm looking. but a chance meeting would be ...nice.

there's a line in the move that goes something like this: "is there someone special in my life? no, but there is the dream of someone."