dawnie, left me a comment this morning about rick, "Oh, poo on Rick! Doesn't he know a good thing when he sees it? Grrrrr!!"
it's funny, because that's just what i was thinking this morning. he and i talked a while ago about his search for a love, and he mentioned his friends think he's nuts. some might think he's searching for someone perfect and unobtainable who just might not exist. rick swears she's out there - he just hasn't met her yet. it reminded me of this joke:
It had been raining for days and days, and a terrible flood had come over the land. The waters rose so high that one man was forced to climb onto the roof of his house.
As the waters rose higher and higher, a man in a rowboat appeared, and told him to get in. "No," replied the man on the roof. "I have faith in the Lord; the Lord will save me." So the man in the rowboat went away. The man on the roof prayed for God to save him.
The waters rose higher and higher, and suddenly a speedboat appeared. "Climb in!" shouted a man in the boat. "No," replied the man on the roof. "I have faith in the Lord; the Lord will save me." So the man in the speedboat went away. The man on the roof prayed for God to save him.
The waters continued to rise. A helicopter appeared and over the loudspeaker, the pilot announced he would lower a rope to the man on the roof. "No," replied the man on the roof. "I have faith in the Lord; the Lord will save me." So the helicopter went away. The man on the roof prayed for God to save him.
The waters rose higher and higher, and eventually they rose so high that the man on the roof was washed away, and alas, the poor man drowned.
Upon arriving in heaven, the man marched straight over to God. "Heavenly Father," he said, "I had faith in you, I prayed to you to save me, and yet you did nothing. Why?" God gave him a puzzled look, and replied "I sent you two boats and a helicopter, what more did you expect?"
when we first got together rick talked about God brining us together and exploring this opportunity. i'm sure rick has met many nice and wonderful women over the years, and he says he's actively looking. i pray he finds what he's looking for, and when he finds it, that he recognizes it.
me? in a few weeks when my church deacon returns from vacation i'll start exploring an annulment. i've spend the last five years going through the grieving process and now i feel this annulment will be my next journey. annulments are a bit painful - having to review and journal about the relationship and marriage, but i think this is what i need to do before i can fully commit to anyone or just be fully free.
it's my next rowboat.